These are difficult women.
I am a difficult woman, and I'm self aware enough to know it. I've thought it, and had it (to varying degrees of kindness) pointed out to me over the years. I am too vehement, too stubborn, too loud, and too voracious. I'm too busy, too passionate, too intense, immovable - just "too much" as I have been told. If I asked you to make a list of difficult women, many would jump to mind. Some
we know, some from history; but what if I asked you to make a list of difficult men? Would any come to mind? Google gave me 15,600,000 results for "difficult woman" but only 578,000 for "difficult man."
I'm beginning to realize that this is only something we call women.
Powerful women are difficult, while men are just... powerful.
I've been called difficult enough to bristle at it. I've even thought that I should care less about things, soften my boundaries, speak more softly, mince my words - but fuck that and fuck you if you think I should. Being a woman shouldn't be about sacrificing my power.
Maybe you're just overly sensitive
Are you kidding me?
I would never have survived taking the easy approach to life. I approach things with fire, with power, and with strength. I have walked through battles that would crumple a lesser person - and
I should be proud of the weathered soldier it has made me, not ashamed of my bristly nature. If
not for my difficult nature, perhaps I'd have given up, let myself be molded into a different creature, cut deeper...
Am I difficult because I am strong? And why is strength something we so often mislabel?
I am flexible, resourceful, stubborn - and that's how I survive.
Life has not been kind to me, and I made it out the other side by drawing boundaries and standing my ground. And I'm here to tell you that I don't plan to give up one single inch of that hard earned ground for anyone. For any reason.
Being difficult is about being dealt a shitty hand, and summoning up the stubbornness to keep going anyway. It's about looking reality in the face and not backing down.
I plan to keep on being difficult, only I've decided to be proud of it.
I have outgrown people who don't take me for who I am. Who don't respect my boundaries and think they exist to be pushed. People who have criticism but not support. I'm tired of shrinking myself for people who are intimidated by me.
I have outgrown trying to please everyone.
I am a difficult woman.